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280706(Friday)

Have my haircut done by Kopi..Haha..Halfway done the shaver was spoilt..Then i ask Mantot to get Acap cutting shaver..When reach..Again the shaver was like shit..Cant cut anything..Damn pain using that shaver..Then Roy and Bomb went to Wak house to get Wak shaver..At last i get to cut my hair..Good service some more..Haha..Having Zu to clean all the hair..Hmm..

After cutting hair..We straight went to meet the riders at the Bencoolen(dunnoe the spelling la)..As usual we all going explore as it was Friday..Hmm..First stop was Bedok cemetery..Hmm..The first to go in was me,Zu,Kopi,Naz,Alif and Bomb..Going in halfway we leave Zu,Shai and Bomb to do the rest of the job..They record the rest of the action inside with Zan videocam..After showing them where to walk,me and the rest when back out..When reach outside Roy ask me and some of us went back in..We meet Shai gang again inside but we decide to went seperate way and went back to the rest using the roadway..When we walk this bangalow Mantot saw this one big dog inside it..Suddenly the dog bark loudly and we all start to run..ahakz..The cemetery was quite small la..So we decide to went to Old Changi Hospital..Hmm..

Reach at Changi and as usual we when a round to look at the Bapoks first..Haha..Aim and his gurl not following us..They just wait for us Changi village..When reach at the Old Changi Hospital me,Alif,Zan,Bomb,Omar only go in..I felt strange there..I told Alif that today not the day..We dun went in..But Bomb still determine to find the mortuary..So we ask Zu to tag along..We when the other way but still cant meet the place..So we call it a day and will return one day..We went back straight home after that..Reach home at 5.30a.m..Me sleep at 6...

290706(Saturday)

Not enough slip..Wake up at 8++ to go to Zu hpuse to help to bring down his drum because we got gig today..Reach Zu lock and saw Alif and Mantot..Alif was sitting and Mantot was lying down and slip at the bench..Haha..They were complaining not enough slip too..ahakz..Wait for zu to wake up..And went up his house to bring down the drum..As we wait for Bomb's papa van to come we make a gig at the voiddeck and record it..Mantot dance was funny and we keep laughing looking at the video..

When we reach the art house we bring the drum to the stage..After that..

AMACAM..ADA JADI KA PA!!

Ahakz..Laughing gas..First took it at the toilet but it was too noisy..So me,Mantot,Zan,Mambo and Alif went to the Singapore River to take it..Laughing all the way like hell..Haha..Then this someone say she wanna reach already so I need to fetch her at Raffles Mrt..She was so sick but still stuborn wanna to meet..Haha..Need to fetch Manga too..Manga was late..Saying that he was stuck in the rain..

FAST FORWARD

The gig was great..Me only mosh when Selfrightsuicide band was performing..Pity her lah..She was getting worst..Send her home..Have a great time with her..Love her..Hehe..After thatwent back to arts house..Gig was over..Help send back drum and we went to have Nasi Lemak..All hungry already..Haha..After having our nasi lemak we straight went home..Reach home around 2..haha..Then slip!!!Not enough slip!!haha..

To someone..Jangan degil la!!Gi makan ubat and have enough rest..Love you..

ADIOS AMIGOS..

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What have happen to me..Why must this happen to me..I just cant forget you..The pictures..The fun you had with him make my heart hurt..I dun knoe why..I have another but I still remember you..You just cant go away..I have taken my heart away from you but why I feel like it still with you..You say that let the time tell but why the time taken away you from me..I know I am the one who have given up all this but this is not because of I want it..I know that you just not interested in me..

There is a story bout you and me but it only lies in my side..To you there nothing bout us..And you start ignoring me..I know there nothing I can give..Money..Nah..I dun have that..Looks..Ahak..Hiak pui..But 1 thing that I could promise..A heart that loves you till the end of my life..But I know you have somebody..Somebody that loves you and you love..I am telling all this not to get you back..Just that I wanna wish all the best with you and him..Forget me if you want to..Our story end here..

To someone,I really love you..Hope that fate will bring us together..You know who you are..Love you so much dear..

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Sorry..Long time no update uh..Busy of working..Tired..Lazy..ahakz..Valid reason right..Hmm..I have quit my work..Damn sux lar..Yesterday my last day..Got argument between my supervisor and Jabal..Most of the machine there were spoiled..Ahakz..Luckily i never use the machine before..If not I also get framed of spoiling the machine..Hmm..But before quitting i got do something bad also ar..Haha..Most of the plant along the path i spray with acid chemical..Ahakz..Notty me..Fuck lar..Who cares..He make me suffer during my last day..I give you a hard life..You got to answer to those fucking management bout the dead plant..Ahakz..Wanna play with me..I play notty..Ahakz..Aniwaz I wanna work as a kitchen cleaner..Hmm..It not about the job..It about the pay..They pay $200 each week..Nice2..Gonna ask if they got vacancy..

After work yesterday straight went to meet the Methricals..It Tuesday so it soccer..Having fun playing soccer this past few meeting..It have been 1 month but my leg is injured..Fuck..But the x-ray show that my leg were ok..Haiz..Damn la..I think becoze i dun take the medicine that the doctor have given to me..But WTF..They only give two types of medicine..One is panadol another one is a stronger type of panadol..I want a painkiller fucking doctor..I having an injured leg not having a fever..Haiz..So so sux..

Aniwaz to someone..Happy to see that you have started a new life..You look happy nowdays..Just have fun with your life ya..You dun need me animore..You are free to go..Adios amigos..

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200706(Thursday)

As usual went to work today..Having my break outside the condo as Bala wanna treat me..After work me went to meet the methricals..Got soccer..Having fun playing soccer coze long time never play..My injuries were still in pain..We went back taking van..I slept early coze too tired and got werk the next day..Aniwaz Atiqah..Mana ada sombong..Dah senyum tau!!

210706(Friday)

After work when back home straight as today EX gonna go explore..We alight the van after having our dinner..First stop woodland(Aini's house)..Send her back home first..On our way to old mental hospital at woodland we shouted at this group of matrep then drove off..Reach there we started our entity project..Zu,Shai and Bomb was the grou who gonna sit on the room to vedio each movement while the rest wait outside..

While we were sitting outside there was this footstep..we just kept quiet..Then the group of matrep we shouted at earlier come..We hide ourself in this garbage room..I and Alif when to check whether they went out back..We got caught by them then we tour them around the building..Me and Alif alight the van and fetch them and straight to the old chua chu kang cemetry..Take the video and halfway there was this dog chase and hit the side of the van..After that Alif send each one of us home..

220706(Saturday)

I dun feel like working animore!!F**k..It Saturday..While the others enjoying their weekends..Wake up late..Me..a 19 y.o guy have to wake up early to work..Haiz..WTF!!Seriously i am thinking bout quiting on the way to work..But i am also thinking bout why i become like this..This is all becoze i am quiting skool..Stupid me..Haiz..What will my parent say if i quit my job??Haiz..I tried to hold on..I tried to learn how to live a hard life..I gonna earn my own money payin my own laptop and hp bill..

I realize now how hard my parent earn money to support me and my brothers..I just need to hold on..I cant always depend on them..

K lar..That all for today and the other day me dun update..Adios Amigos..

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Decide to change my blogskin..The previous one was not that nice coze the entry was cramped together..Hmm..This skin look quite neater..

Aniwaz today nothing special..Just like yesterday..Go to work and then went back home straight..Aniwaz my work getting more and more easier each day..Just that i had to walk around the condo all day long..In the afternoon i get to go to the rooftop to collect the water tank..The view from the top was so beautiful sia..

Tomorrow got soccer..Dunnoe wanna go or not..Scared that i am too tired la..But Tues also i did not go..Nvm la..Just go la tomorrow..Jiwa mesti ada beb..

Got into an arguement just now at msn..I was just asking for her hp no. so that it easier if i wanna contact her..She say that she wun give coze wanna take care of his guy heart..We have been friend for nearly 2 years..What wrong by giving me your no...It not as if i wanna flirt with you and steal you from your guy..I got my own syg already la..Nvm..It your right..I am sorry..i should not have "force" you..Just miss the Ain that i knoe before..The way she ask me for help with her problem..The way she cry to me..haiz..No longer Ain..It left only with Aini..Miss you adik..

Dear!!Not fair!!!Mish you sey..We never talk for so long sey..You fell asleep again today..Haiyo..."Jaga you sok kena lecture habis2.."ahakz..Miss her la..

Aniwaz cant wait for 29th July..We got to mosh Methricals coze Selfrightsuicide performing!!!Till then..Adios Amigos..

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Lazy to update la..haiz..Been force to update by someone..Nvm..Well as for today nothing much happen..Wake up at 6.50..Bagus ar nie anak..Hari2 tido 2 jam je..Reach workplace around 7.40..Makcik2 all start work first..My work start later..Biasa lar..Assitance supervisor nye partner..

My work was so easy sia..Just need to wipe here and wipe there..The werk can be done in 2 hours but they gave me 4 hours..Ahakz..Steady2..The rest of the 2 hours can lepak2..I have nasi bungkus for my lunch..Betul2 nye keje contract ar..Ahakz..Sleep for 30 minutes je during lunch..

As per normal..My work start later then the makcik2..This time I and Bala(My partner) went to 12 storey to clean the corridor..Again my work is so easy..Just mop the floor..Bala have use the machine and polish the floor..Get to walk around the condo sia..

Hmm..I do notice something when i work there..The maid that work for owner that stay at condo are more beautiful than maid outside..Sorry to say that some are more beautiful than my ex..Ahakz..Hmm..Abg Wan(my colleauge) nye matair lawa siol..Aniwaz he cant stop talking dirty..Such and open and fun guy..Ahakz..

After work i should be heading to soccer but i was too tired..Feel like wanna get sick soon..Went back home straight..Sorry methricals..penat sangat uh..haiz..K lar..that all..

To someone that ask me to update..THANK ME OK!!ahakz..Syg dia..K anak2..Adios Amigos..

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What love??Seriously after 4 years of through this thing call love I still dun understand..I dun understand why love??what love??which love??where love??Yar my love start 4 years ago when I was sec 3 I think..Before that I dun care bout love..But since meeting this gurl yar I had fall for my first love..There was where my love start..

Haiz..Gone through so much..There was this gurl..I love her so much but without a reason she gone..Gone without saying goodbye..There was also this gurl..Stead with me for a month..She say she do love me..During our 1st month anniversary she dun contact me at all..The next day(which is valentine day) she ask for a break..Wanna knoe the reason..She say she dun love me since we stead..WTF..Another girl..She say she do love me..Say let the time decide la..Ask for out watching movie say she have seen it but..WTF..The movie havent even on the cinema yet..I dun think she really do love me..Ahakz..forget it dear..So many to tell la..Maybe just this few..

Hmm..That how my love life gone.. Heart have been broken thousands of times..The purest love I gave to all have not been appreciate..They spit and step my heart till I cant recognise my own heart..Time by time me cleaning them back hoping that one of you will take it and keep close to it as if it was your own..But I cant..I was tired of washing it again and again..My heart do gave up too..Me and my heart gonna die alone..Nobody want us..It hurt to see other couple together happily but wat to do..It my Fate..

To my ex..My lovers..Wish all the best to you gurls..My love end here..Thanx for the happy and sad life we gone through..

Goodbye love..If there fate I gonna come back..Adios Amigos..

p.s:Doing this during totally depress and stress..Everything was out..

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160706 (Sunday)

Methricals to the baybeats!!!Meet Ihsan at the lakeside mrt..He was so late..Then straight ahead to city hall..Before that pipit alight from Jurong East to tag along..Meet the SFS at the city link and then when to our usual place(Long John Silver)..Wait for Alif and Mantot there as they came riding bike..They were late too..They were chase by a group of bike..When they reach..

AMACAM..ADA JADI KA PA!!!ahakz..

Me,Alif and mambo buy laughing gas..We took it at the riverside path..So many people were looking at us..We were like drunk guy laughing and laying down on the path..Me and Mantot keep laughing even the laughing gas finish..Whenever people there say 'sial' we will laugh..ahakz..Me,pipit,mambo and acap went back at 10..

170706(Monday)

First day of work..Wake up at 6.30 just now..Mummy ask wanna work or not..At first dont want..But mummy keep nagging so i was force to..First meet my Kakak sedara at Chua chu kang mrt..The condo was near Chua chu kang mrt..I was interview and start work as soon as i finish my interview..ahakz..Most of the worker there were Mak ciks and neneks(Aunt and Gradma..Me the youngest..ahakz..The work there was quite tiring but the supervisor was super damn sporting..GEREK DOKS..ahakz..K lar..that all folks..Aniwaz syg..i hope you knoe who you are..I LOVE YOU SO MUCH..ahakz..As for the others ADIOS AMIGOS..

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So BoReD So HeRe It Go:-

Ya Allah..
Seandainya telah Engkau catatkan..
Dia milik ku tercipta buat ku..
Satukanlah hatinya dengan hati ku..
Titipkanlah kebahagian antara kami..
Agar kemesraan itu abadi..
Dan Ya Allah...ya tuhan ku yang maha mengasihi..
Seiringkanlah kami melayari hidup ini..
Ketepian yang sejahtera dan abadi..
Tetapi Ya Allah..
Seandainya telah engkau takdirkan..
dia bukan milik ku..
Bawalah ia jauh dari pandangan ku..
Luputkanlah ia dari ingatan ku..
Dan peliharalah aku dari kekecewaan..

Serta Ya Allah Ya Tuhan ku Yang maha mengerti..
Berikanlah aku kekuatan..
Melontar bayangannya jauh ke dada langit..
Hilang bersama senja nan merah..
agar ku bisa bahagia..
Walaupun tanpa bersama dengannya..

Dan Ya Allah yang tercinta..
Gantilah yang telah hilang..
Tumbuhkanlah kembali yang telah patah..
Walaupaun tidak sama dengan dirinya..
Ya Allah Ya Tuhan ku..
Pasrahkanlah aku dengan takdir Mu..

Sesungguhnya apa yang telah Engkau takdirkan..
Adalah yang terbaik buat ku..
Kerana Engkau maha mengetahui..
Segala terbaik buat hamba mu ini..

Ya Allah..
Cukuplah Engkau sahaja yang menjadi pemelihara ku..
Di dunia dan di akhirat..
Dengarlah rintihan dari hamba mu yang daif ini..
Jangan Engkau biarkan aku sendirian..
Di dunia ini mahupun di akhirat..
Menjuruskan aku kearah kemaksiatan dan kemungkaran..
Maka kurniakanlah aku seorang pasangan yang beriman..
Supaya aku dan dia sama-sama dapat membina kesejahteraan hidup..
Ke jalan yang Engkau redhai..
Dan kurniakanlah pada ku keturunan yang soleh..

Amin ..Ya Rabbal A'lamin..

It gonna be a long entry..Yesterday outing was so so fun but damn tiring..Thanx to Bojama..We were told to stand by at Jurong East at 3 but the van came at 3.45..Just wanted to gave up and go home but the wait was worth it..

First stop....We reach this stretch of stall which sell many types of fruit..The fruit that were selected to by was durian and rambutan..Pipit cant stand the smell of durian..ahakz..I and Shai was teached by his uncle how to choose the best durian and show us how the durian seller sells his durian..Pract 1.01 pass!!!!ahakz..

Next stop was this restaurant..The name was Damai Restaurant..There was a boat nearby the restaurant..Take pics here and there..So many beautiful sceneries..There was where Pipit and Manga first buy Ciggies..Free flow as it was cheap there..Smoke and smoke and smoke..Ahakz..Food we had:Lemon Chicken,Nasi Goreng,Tom Yam Chicken soup,Fried squid with flour,Fish with sweet and sour sauce,Fried prawn,Mixed vegetable,Black pepper beef and Ice tea..Lemon chicken was the best!!We also had our durian at the restaurant..ahakz..

Third stop we went to abg Iwan mother in law bangalow..Reach there we slack and watch Singapore Idol before going to watch movie..Damn sleepy after the big meal..Ahakz..After that we went outside to hav our smoking session coze cant stand la..All very sleepy already..After that off we went to our last stop..

Our last stop..Dunnoe lar wat mall..There we all buy our ciggies to bring in to Singapore..After buying ciggies we enter the movie theater..Damn small lar the theater..The seat was uncomfortable..The movie was quite ok lar..Aniwaz we watching Pirates Of The Caribbean 2..After that we have to rush back coze the transport that wanna send us home was already waiting for us.. After that i thought i can have some good rest at home..BUT!!!!

AMACAM ADA JADI KA PA!!!Ahakz..

Alif sms Mambo on the way home..Night riding!!!

Lazy to elaborate..Shortcut..
-Kopi "giler card"
-Go West coast to check it out..
-Meet West coast chix..
-Fetch Lemang..
-Go Esplanade..
-Meet friendly Chinese chix inside taxi..
-Went back at 4.30 a.m

Today wake up at 1..Later go Baybeats..Tired sia..Till then..Adios Amigos..

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There no need to lie to me dear..The truth did hurt but it better that i know it from your mouth.. Why dun you just tell me that you are someone gurl??Why there is need for someone else to tell me..You tell me that you aint ready..But what are all this??I do really love you but i wun take someone's gurl..That just not me..It a sin to me..Haiz..

My dear heart,
Izzit true that nobody want you??Izzit true that you gonna die alone??Izzit true that after all you have done for them this wat should you get as a reward??Loneliness!!!Yar..That the reward..Thanx gurls..Haiz..

As for today i do nothing..Just slack and rot at home..Thinking of going Zu house but lazy uh..No bus fare la..Lazy to walk..So slack in front of the laptop..Chatting all the way..Bored sial one whole day..My first meal of the day at 7+ pm..Ask mummy to buy nasi berani coze too hungry..After that continue in front of the laptop till now..WHAT A BORING DAY!!Aniwaz me going Johor tomorrow..The boss of Bojama wanna treat us eat..Got our work pay some more!!Ahakz..K lar..Untill here lar..Adios Amigos..

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Testing 1..2..3..At last..After so many many months i have created my own blog..So proud..Ahakz..Hmm..But so sori that the blog have not been fully prepared as it is still under construction..Need the help of my "Orang kanan" of Salakia to do the advance adjustment for my blog..Ahakz..

Hmm..So it gonna be the starting of my life story..Hope that this blog wun be "jerok" like Shai's blog..Try my best to update everyday ok..Hmm..I think just this for now ar..Been doing this since morning..Need some rest..Adios Bro..

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