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Hmm..Long holiday..5 days..Then back to training again..Soon it gonna be tough..Holiday no where near so it gonna be bz..Rifle range coming up..Field camp next..Soon it will be S.O.C and I.P.P.T..

I hope that all that will keep me bz..Keep me away from thinking bout her..

4 years ago it was Love At first Sight..She the one who make me start love..But it only last year that I really get to know her..But because of 1 mistake..Just 1..She make me wait..But the wait was just useless..2 month in the NS it make me far apart from her..Too far to show how much I love her..Too far to show how deep is my love for her..She been dating other guy..She was with other guy while I was in the camp thinking all bout her..

She change..She once told me that I was different from any other guy she know..But now I was an irritating guy who disturb her life..I regret making the mistake..I regret hurting her in the past..But feeling regret cant change anything..

I have done everything to get her back..I beg her..I plead her..I ask for forgiveness..Nothing works..I bought her a ring for her birthday but she reject it..Haiz..

Hanya Padamu:-

I used to be the best guy in your life..But I know I’m not anymore..A mistake separate us gurl..You know that I regret making that mistake..But feeling regret wont change your hate towards me..I know how much sorry that came out from my mouth,how much tears have been flowing out of my eyes and how long I waited you, I wont be getting you back..My wait end here gurl..I gave up..Gave up not because of not loving you anymore..But give up because I know you wont be here with me anymore..Haiz..

If I had a choice again i would never start to love..

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Let see..Hmm..1 month and 9 days..So so so dusty already..Ahakz..It not that I dun wanna write but everytime I wanna start writing my mind go blank..I think it is becoze of the shagness I get from the NS training..So dun blame me uh..Ahakz..Hmm..So what should I write about???Hope my mind wun go blank again..Ahakz..

NS life..NS life..NS life..Hmm..

Been through 8 weeks in one piece and still in one piece..That lucky enough already..Still not thinking of AWOL-ing(Absent without official leave) and OOT-ing(Out of training)..Still can endure many types of training they give..We had strength training,ET jog,circuit training,aqua jogging,aqua aerobics,aerobics,combat physical training,IPPT(NAFA Test) and more coming up soon..Going through each day with endurance and pain..But the pain that I been through really worth it coze I been losing fats and gaining muscle..Ahakz..

Aniwaz our platoon finally got caught smoking in the toilet..Haiz..Saper nye keje je isap rokok tak tahu flush..We will be confine next week and our ciggies would be control till Wednesday..That mean we smoke 2 ciggies per day..Haiz..

Weekend Life..Hmm..

It have been two weeks I did not meet methricals to lepak..Last week had staff outing to Johor..This week spend time at home resting..So sorry cant join you all to town today..Kocek koyak uh..Next week baru gaji masok..Tu pun tak tahu kluar ke tak coze got confinement..

K la..That all folks..Adios Amigos..

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